xlonextearx

xlonextearx @ 2006-05-24T13:06:00

2006-05-24T18:18:36Z

So Livejournal i havent written in a while and for this im sorry you should always be my priority....Yeah nothing new over here...i went to this new store they have in the city called Mixt Tape THEY HAVE THE MOST AMAZING BOY CLOTHES and belts, i have a fancy for belts mostly white belts with black pants , i love that look.
they didnt have anything in my size at the time though . but i picked up a really cool pin to add to my sweater it says myspace whore, i need a livejournal whore pin cause im a slave to you livejournal.

so today i decided that i shouldnt get out of bed, its just me and my camera today and my laptop of course ! ive just been so down lately livejournal,i dont feel like showing my face,everyone is the same here theyre all so sucked up in their own lives to see me or hear my words.blah ...o well i think i may actually as my dad to buy me some wine ...maybee not my dad bacause he will be like "why are you drinking wine you prissy girlie man" then ill get upset and cry or even worse i might hurt myself because the pain he causes me needs to be expressed.Ill ask my mom then...some merlot and a camera..oh yes ....dark rooms and cameras are my favorite.

ill write back soon i promise.

xlonextearx @ 2006-04-06T14:12:00

2006-04-06T18:55:46Z

Livejournal! Spring IS HERE and to make things better i met a new friend hes a boy and hes a bit on the rough and tough side but i like him ..He's asked me to lend him $20 so i will , and were going to be going out to see strippers then for steak dinner .....hes gonna eat steak im vegan so ill probly eat salad or something who knows OH who cares livejournal i get to hang out with this guy ...a total stud he is ...the girls like him AND THE BOYS WANT TO BE HIM .Anyways yeah i m pretty excited today maybee its the soy latte or maybee its the nice weather but livejournal i feel good ...im going to go take pictures now , go write some poetry maybee get my hair done ....Hurray

boredom .....

2006-03-25T17:31:28Z

live journal ,
today has been productive, i got a soy chai latte and painted my nails....played around with my camera ...got some interesting shots of a lamp . it looked so lonesome shinning light in the darkness around itself...i took tubby to the groomers on corydon exclusively cats...awesome place...since i live with my parents now i find i have alot of time to do what i love most ...write songs,play music, take pics, buy clothes....i dont miss the starving myself just to get the newest belt or hair product recommended to me by my friends.No livejournal,this is the life!My mom is such a good person too bad i cant say the same about my dad, hes so mean to me always calling me a sissie and whatnot ....whatever...i remember when i had a girl over he would be like "are you guys having a slumber party" so embarassing ...but whatever he is just that way because hes old school and can never understand the anguish of a 20 something year old man. I just resent him for it and always will...oh enough about my dad. I'll be moving out soon I'm just waiting on this government grant for my photography.

I wrote a poem i would like some feedback cause im planning on making it into a song.
just gotta figure out the chorus and whatever.

hopeless, i see through you
the lies in your eyes
why cant you be true?
this morning, we lay sleeping
we held each other close,just barely breathing
I woke up and saw through you
you made me beleive we'd be forever

who was he?why must you leave me
weve made our mistakes,what will it take
dont leave me i'm so hopeless
I saw through you
now youre leaving
i have nothing.

dont you leave me
i just need you

anyways livejournal hope you like it

you inspire me Kate.

life is a sick sick joke

2006-03-22T21:05:06Z

ohhhhhhhhhh livejournal,
so this morning was so long ,the last couple of days feel like an eternity trapped in my room,my warm dark hole away from it all, I have these amazing candles that smell so good like vanilla and lavender, they inspire me livejournal. so does my camera i take such amazing shots with it that it makes me want to write about how vibrant the world is. I went to value village bought myself a jean jacket not like i need another one....well maybee i do ....i got my hair done by Gustav it looks so awesome. I miss Kate that i have to keep busy or ill just keep calling her over and over, i wrote a BOOK of poetry about her and how beautiful her eyes shine in the moon and how tubby cries for her every night looking to see where she went off to . oh why am i thinking of this livejournal ! i have to go before i start thinking of ending it again.

bye bye livejournal

xlonextearx @ 2006-03-14T14:14:00

2006-03-14T19:19:28Z

Well Live journal its 115pm what am i doing ...I miss Kate. ive missed her all day ...maybee if i go do my hair for a while itll help ....nah probly wont....i should get a peircing when im in these moods it doesnt hurt as bad...im hurting so i may as well feel all pain at one time.

I need to find a good spot to write my songs, i usually sit with Tubby and i get inspired i used to sit with Kate.My special beautiful Kate, maybee its for the better were apart, i dont think you can love someone this much.i dont think its legal

im gonna go to Value Village today and buy a sweater, i hope i find some vintage ones that are all worn in and comfy but tight.

well Live Journal hopefully Sam will wanna go out hes such a good friend to me.

see you soon my friend.

xlonextearx @ 2006-03-14T09:54:00

2006-03-14T15:52:39Z

Dear Livejournal,
oh this morning is not starting off on the right foot. Here I am at the library downtown freezing, because all i wore was this jean jacket and my scarf with stripes on it.. my hair is stiff from the cold and it sweeping into my eye.

So the one who got away is now added onto my LJ .she knows how sorry i am and how much I hurt when i think of her, when i remember all those coffee dates at Starbucks and all those songs we wrote,its like the world stood still everytime shed be in the room.

Davie meant nothing to me .well he did ...it was just a one time thing we wanted to try and now i lost all that i ever loved she smelled like roses ..i miss singing to you and i know youre reading this, i miss your hair tickling my face like Tubbys does. Come back to me..I wrote this for you..

I feel desperate ,i feel like my whole life is falling appart.
Your face so beautiful its breaking my heart
I feel so stupid it was a mistake
just take me back or ill jump in a lake

oh my girl come back to me
i need you here cant you see?
we played guitar
we slept in cars
we wrote songs all night long
and talked on AIM, what ever went wrong

come back

ok so that was my pathetic attempt.

either way Tubby misses you too.
im gonna go make a grilled cheeze and take a bath.
ttyl livejournal

WHATEVER

2006-03-08T20:32:01Z

Dear Livejournal,
Boy Livejournal i have alot to say!Things for the last couple of days sure have been hard.I dont understand why its so hard to tell people how i feel about them, i guess if everyone was Tubby then it would be the best, but well they arent.I feel like im trapped in a cage somewhere in a basement rotting away like fine wine or cheese well maybee not cheese cause i dont stink.So i write to you in the hopes that when i write this this feeling of gloom will go away. Theres this person who i met shes really the coolest girl and she has the best fashion sense ever in the world, she doesnt notice me livejournal well maybee she does but she doesnt seem to want to tell me how she feels. This is the kind of girl that makes me almost want to be completely straight but hey i cant help it i kiss boys im all about it but i dont feel like i do with her.she is the moon on a dark cloudy night.shes a moon thats what she is livejournal.shes a hussie though a no good hussie with her wild ways and what have yous all the boys want her and theyre much tougher than i ever could be. theyre dog people im a small dog or cat person, that alone says it all.

I still think of the one who got away.but she got away ..moved away to be with her new man she met through myspace..myspace is trully evil. I guess he just had better photos and better everything.

ugh livejournal i hate everyone
not you though

see you later i have to write poetry,bare my soul....maybee that will make me better.

xlonextearx @ 2006-02-27T11:08:00

2006-02-27T16:23:55Z

Well Live Journal, this weekend was crazy ! I was supposed to meet my friends at our local pub and discuss my new poetry i had written about the one who got away. So i was getting my hair done (i just got highlights in it it looks awesome against my jet black hair)when tubby slipped of his perching spot and cut my arm open. I didnt really mind but i had hairspray all over my hands and when i put my bandaid on it burned so bad that i started to cry.

So once i got over all that got my hair finished got my mp3 player and rode my bike to the pub.I was quite late so when i showed up no one was there, i waited for over 1 hr hoping my friends were going to come back but they didnt.I walked out of the bar broken hearted and defeated....so i punched the window ....nothing happened...Some guy got really angry with me and tried to beat me up i cowardly walked away but i made sure i mentioned to him how good looking he was. he was good looking, maybee its just how tough he looked.

So i came home made some tea and browsed some myspace profiles.

thats it for now livejournal,i must go now and write some songs.

BLAH

2006-02-21T04:49:11Z

Well today was long and painful i played with my cat Tobias or Tubby as i call him hes wonderful,especially when i feel like this..ive been staring at my cell phone wondering if she will call, I doubt it i should just stop hoping there is no point now,im a good looking guy, i like good music im pretty fun sometimes soon i think ill find someone who truly knows how i feel i guess i shouldnt date punk girls anyways they always break your heart with their wild ways.

Have you ever felt so isolated so alone that you can barely stand your own thoughts anymore??
I feel this way alot i think that doesnt make me sad it just makes me aware of whats really happening.

why did she leave ? I remember the smell of her hair , minty sort of like head and shoulders not that she had dandruff or maybee she did ..who knows..I miss her

Good nite Live Journal.

broken

2006-02-18T01:50:10Z

Dear Livejournal.

Well today I gave in, made a livejournal finally.I think its a good thing.Im so down lately it just hurts to be so alone all the time so now i guess maybee i'll just talk to you live journal.
It's weird to expose everyone to how youre feeling and know that there are people looking at this at somepoint,makes me feel nervous and excited (i think im gonna write a song about that later on)
Things have just been so hard without my one and only,the one who comforted me who made me whole
Im so sad

I think im gonna go write a song about that